THE HEALING OF SARAH

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I was asked recently, "how did you end up in Germany if you want to be in Spain, working on your project? I asked myself that, too. And many insights have come clear for me.

I want to share the mystery of Sarah and its beautiful revealing. Sarah is a part of many of us. Do you know the story of Sarah, Abrahams wife?

I read the book last Spring.
My mother read the book in her book club,
and she told me countless times to go read the book.
She didn't consciously know why I should read it,
and when I tell her what I've discovered, it will make sense to her.

So, here's a secret to discovering what's the unsettling inside of you..
Or, why aren't things happening the way you intended..

Here's the place I look...
(Some background:I've been intending to attract The Jewel Council.
and I was getting impatient and anxious. And I began to experience severe aloneness, isolation.)
So I looked at the people in my life and what they are experiencing for themselves.
I attracted them into my life and they attracted me.
When I looked at all the people currently in conversation with me,
many of them had a common theme amoungst them
and so, looking at that,
I could then see that it was in me, too.

So here's what I saw..
and this is nothing bad..it's human

one woman, just lost her husband recently,
and almost always had the experience of being completely alone,
with no friends, isolated by being the constant caretaker of her husband
doing everything by herself, no help

a person in my family,
overworking herself,
attracting work that was overdemanding of her
struggling to make it work
working alone

a person I recently met,
working very hard
chasing the money,
thinking no one can do the work she is doing
so she's doing it all alone

a man,
who has left everything in his past life
and wonders what community he really belongs to,
and is alone

and another man, in the same situation.

So then there's Annie..
that's me...
and here is what I saw..
throughout my life, until now,
I have believed that I was alone
years ago, I had a nightmare,
where I was in a black void,
with no anchors at all, no sense of orientation,
no help,,,
and deep inside,,I could see that
I believed there was no help.
I would find myself being, feeling alone.
Yes, I am also a person who loves and enjoys people
and I'm very good with people,
AND I had this deep belief, that I'm all alone.
And once in a while it would get triggered.
and it could be a terrifying experience.

So then I saw,
well if I'm alone and without help,
I've got the door shut.
nobody and nothing can come in.
and sure enough,
after six weeks, my internet card had still not arrived!
and my cell phone still didn't work.
and I wondered who am I closing off from reaching me,
while believing that I'm alone and without help?

So I cut out pictures in magazines,
to help me see all the beliefs around 'being alone'.
I could see the whole thing.
Then I wrote out all of the old beliefs
and took it to the forest.
and there I ripped up the paper,
and tossed it in the air,
saying,"divine masters, take this burden from me!"

I went to lay in the sunny meadow.
I was exhausted,
from processing and releasing.

Then I felt ready to create a new BEEING.
When I get to this stage, I used to get stuck in my head,
and not come up with something inspiring.
so I pay attention to signs around me..
and I did a drawing..
I drew the Strait near the African coast,
and then I added the dolphins,
and then I remembered what my mentor told me...
listen to the dolphins,
but be careful, they're a little dangerous
and I said, " oh you mean they get a little enthusiastic and might knock me over!"
(and the dolphins and I were THAT enthusiastic the last time we saw each other)

and then in the meadow a family of rescued dogs came to greet me. The biggest one,
saw the others getting attention and jumped up to nip me in my neck,
and almost knocked me over..

I got what my new BEEING was..
BEEING KNOCKED OVER BY LOVE!

That night in my campervan, as I was going off to sleep, I went into this mental turmoil,truly intense...worry about how I was going to survive... and it was my first chance to BEE knocked over by love,,,
what I saw was,,,I am standing in the center of people, holding a blazing torch, high above everyone's heads and light is filling all of us.

So what about Sarah? Sarah went through many years with the tribe of Abraham, in resentment and anger, because early in her life she was deeply hurt. She couldn't bear children by Abraham. It was her choice. She destroyed her ability to bear children. It was her way to cut herself off from her royal family and be with the tribe of Abraham.

She held resentment and hurt for years and years, and finally cloistered herself off from the rest of the tribe and lived in complete isolation.

Until her anger was about to overcome her, and in her old age, she surrendered all of her anger and her disbelief in the divine, and then the miracle of birth occurred for Sarah. She bore Abrahams child.

I bore The Jewel Project that day in the forest. I opened myself up to help, team, being knocked over by love. Love comes in all its infinite forms. I am open now to team in my life..and so much more!!

Two days later, I received an email from a husband and wife in England who had seen The Jewel Project listed in the directory for intentional communities. They are experienced intentional community participants and are drawn to The Jewel Project.

THE DOOR IS OPEN!