Here I am at the Overlook, just a few kilometers from where I live!

I've begun writing again! It's December 2nd! I'm here in the Valley in southern Spain.

It’s Saturday afternoon in the little town where I live…..it’s like living in Little Switzerland, the little town I visited as a girl in the Blue Ridge mts of the Carolinas…

For the people of the nearby city of Algeciras, Pelayo is magical….
I look out my window to the Strait of Gibraltar, the color of grayish blue, and the clouds lifted high enough now to see the mountain range on the African side….Im so close I can make out little villages in Morrocco. Down below in the village is the soccer field, and the players played in the rain that just halted.. The village is full of magic. I keep meeting more and more people, and each time I meet people filled with gratitude. The older retired men, seem to all play father to me.

Two nights ago, I delivered the “Attracting Perfect Love” to a woman in Algeciras at a café at 9pm at night. She owns a perfume and makeup shop. She and I are making great discoveries together about what we want in a “perfect mate”. I saw through helping her, that I had an issue come up again for me…..I saw myself being submissive and holding back my true self, in the male/female relationship experience recently. We laughed about it, and I said that what I want is being “Jane” , as in Tarzan and Jane…..Jane , who swings through the jungle, as well, following her own inner guidance! Her own jungle calls!

I find myself flowing with the life I’m creating here…..that night after the course, I slept in my own private room at Juan and Antonia’a private pension….I got to have a hot salt bath! Their pension is two blocks from the central square in Algeciras, and it is so quiet and still. The next day, Antonia (80 yrs old, adorned with her red hair and gold jewelry and gypsy like earrings) beckoned me into the kitchen of her traditional colonial style home, to feed me paella and some other samples from the sea.

In the day, I went with my friend, Milagro, to nearby Getares, which is so close I could almost walk, and there she showed me the apartment I could stay in that is right on the Getares beach. Getares is a modern suburb… I flow with loving gratitude for my blessings! As Milagro says, here everything is close by…it’s so true…I’m finding I don’t need a car…and Milagro and many others prefer being without a car, too.

In the early afternoon, I went back to my village apartment, to rest, and to get Principe restocked with love, attention and food. And in the evening, I went back to Getares, to a yoga center, where Curra, the owner had invited me to hold a chanting session after the yoga class. The chanting was magnificent… the room filled to the max with the loving voices of the students…….its always magical for me….and in the late evening I walked to the seaside apartment, already prepared for my visit.

In the morning the sun blazed across the sea and into my window, beckoning me to come out and play…when I woke up that morning, my head and my body were filled with some negativity, some noise….like, “how is it all going to happen? The classes and such…how will I gather the people? How will I hold the gathering?......such familiar noise…….a signal to get back in touch with gratitude……the beach at Getares….had just a few fisherman and walkers…I knew the angels had arranged that I be at Getares beach…..it was time to reconnect with the elements of nature , by the sea I went out in bare feet….I started to feel the sand comforting my feet, as I walked I began to let myself breathe deeply….i let the sound of the waves fill me, fill me….and wash away the residue of noise. After walking and walking , I set all my belongings down, and began to twirl and raise my hands to the blue sky…..and I thanked the heavens , the angels for bringing me here….there is nothing as powerful as reaching my arms to the heavens to give thanks…I really feel my body returning to the feeling of gratitude….and this is all I need to feel…..then I began to think of each person in my life, and thank them for coming in their form…..I danced , twirled , squished my feet in the sand, shook myself…back and forth, up and down the beach….

I felt better and better..until I began to see the sea in all its depth and beauty, and every grain of sand , a miracle.

I haven’t had a watch since I got to Spain…I ask people or sometimes bring my alarm clock….i sensed it was the perfect time to walk from Getares to the main road to catch the bus back to my village….on the walk , all the way, was a perfect sidewalk! I reached in plenty of time and found a herbolisteria (health store) right at the stop that had my curiousity. The woman my age, was walking her 85 yr old mother outside the shop,,,and we began to talk…I shared about my mother, and now that my mother had transitioned that Dad was experiementing for the first time with cooking…She was delighted to hear my stories…and inside when I glimpsed her shop, I saw many of the things I had been looking for …another magical shop…just on the road to my village. Her granddaughters (2 or 3 yrs old)stepped out from the back . The girls with eyes so, so big and bright….beaming, beaming….crystal children….bringing love to our planet…..

I love catching the bus….its so comfortable, and I get to be chauffered …while I peer out the huge windows….

The bus leaves me just a few blocks from the apt. …I paused ….its the perfect time to buy fresh vegetables and eggs from the little store in the village….Fernando, my age, runs the store…I step in off the street….he greets me with eyes filled with gratitude…
This time I get a surprise….as we speak of his mother who passed away 8 months ago ( I met her last year), he invites me into his adjacent rooms…where he lives to see pictures of his mother….he says…”she was always laughing”. I was thinking, “that’s what people say of ME, since I arrived”.

I feel a little cautious, going into his private quarters….he loves to kiss me , Spanish style on both cheeks , whenever I come….and he does it with such passion. This time the salsa music was playing and he asked me if I love to dance and we began dancing…He dances with such passion, such style, I think of the men in the latin clubs in South America….He wears such suave shoes…he is handsome…

I ask if he is married since he wears a ring…..he’s not. He says he has never been married…always lived with his mother…took care of her…he loved her deeply…

He asks if I will call him and gives me his number. He mentions the Chorro….which is the spring that pours out of the earth, just 100meters from where I sleep. I haven’t seen it yet…it’s back in the thick lush growth above the last house, close to the mountain valley wall….many people ask me about the chorro, if I have seen it…

I know I will go to see it, very soon. There is something magical about the Chorro, too.

When I come back to the apartment, it begins to rain heavily, lovingly….my timing is perfect once again….that’s how it seems to go with me….I reach my destination, just in time for a rain storm!

Principe eagerly awaits the feeding time….He greets me with a jump on my lap and rubbing his furry cheek to mine..As I gaze into his huge golden eyes , I realize that his eyes are the eyes of Fernando.

on a spanish keyboard.
beginning to get to know the community here.
the rainy season, and it is raining more than
so to give me time to get my projects going here.

The first weekly gathering begins next Wednesday.
some of my new friends, Sirio and young Eniya <13 yrs old,
from the Gnostic community
are playing their instruments to accompany the chanting.
Eniya was with me when who passed away a few weeks ago.

and the first Strategic Attraction course begins in ten days!

i´ve got slow speed , remo te connection for my internet
so i´m working from here today,
and st ill working on a place to hook into the internet,
so i can talk on skype and work on the website,

all flows at the perfect time, im finding...
what´s so great is what has already happened,
principe is with me now,
the night that i brought him home,
we hugged and kissed and talked,
as you cannot imagine
he is definitely the mascot, or the holder of the promise.

people who are as sweet as dolphins
and some know their connection to the dolphins,
and their connection to the the mountain opposite the coast of Spain..
when i focus on the jebel,
i contact deep stillness within me.


i am in deep gratitude for everyoné´s support,
in whatever form it came to me.
now that im here my work can begin...
love to you all!

keep checking the blog.
more news coming.
lovingly, Annie

so i´ll back up and tell more,
later on.
right now, so its slower..
i arrived after 48 hours of driving
with the help of a wonderful person i met in the magic meadow in
last night was my first night to be at the gnostics,
the jewel property is just next to theirs,
and we are all alone in the still valley

principe recognized me after i called out his name,
in the way i used to,
he slept with me in the living room of manolos small country house
and in the night he nuzzled me over and over again
and i kissed him over and over,

peter who is with us until a week from now,
had anger and disappointment come up several times.
over his expectations not being met..
because we thought we wouild be at the gnostics before we were
i silently, quietly did several healings for him,
and kept seeing him as bade baba
a saint from india,
because he walks just like bade baba
at night i put him in sacred light,
along with everyone else i could think of,
today he softened,
all of his negativity metlted away.
he didn´t know the healing i did for him.
i taught him the strategic attraction plan
for his daughter who ignores him,
from ecuador.

interesting that he has slept better than ever since traveling
with me,
and staying with the gnostics

one night we went to algeciras
to the procession
of the virgin
she watches the entry to europe.
i will continue about this auspicious event
and i want to say what wonderful people we met that night,
who took us to one of their homes and showed us their art
and we were invited to dine with them again.
so many dolphin people here,
such big hearts,
and they know they are dolphins in human bodies..
more later..

so blessed,
and excited to begin opening the way for more people to be here with me

THE HEALING OF SARAH

One way to show your appreciation for my sharing with you is to make a financial contribution. This is greatly appreciated as Annie remains focused on attracting The Jewel Council who will be the creators of The Jewel: a profitable, self-sustaining,educational and crafting community in southern Spain. Go to www.awakeningadventures.biz/lovecontributions.html

I was asked recently, "how did you end up in Germany if you want to be in Spain, working on your project? I asked myself that, too. And many insights have come clear for me.

I want to share the mystery of Sarah and its beautiful revealing. Sarah is a part of many of us. Do you know the story of Sarah, Abrahams wife?

I read the book last Spring.
My mother read the book in her book club,
and she told me countless times to go read the book.
She didn't consciously know why I should read it,
and when I tell her what I've discovered, it will make sense to her.

So, here's a secret to discovering what's the unsettling inside of you..
Or, why aren't things happening the way you intended..

Here's the place I look...
(Some background:I've been intending to attract The Jewel Council.
and I was getting impatient and anxious. And I began to experience severe aloneness, isolation.)
So I looked at the people in my life and what they are experiencing for themselves.
I attracted them into my life and they attracted me.
When I looked at all the people currently in conversation with me,
many of them had a common theme amoungst them
and so, looking at that,
I could then see that it was in me, too.

So here's what I saw..
and this is nothing bad..it's human

one woman, just lost her husband recently,
and almost always had the experience of being completely alone,
with no friends, isolated by being the constant caretaker of her husband
doing everything by herself, no help

a person in my family,
overworking herself,
attracting work that was overdemanding of her
struggling to make it work
working alone

a person I recently met,
working very hard
chasing the money,
thinking no one can do the work she is doing
so she's doing it all alone

a man,
who has left everything in his past life
and wonders what community he really belongs to,
and is alone

and another man, in the same situation.

So then there's Annie..
that's me...
and here is what I saw..
throughout my life, until now,
I have believed that I was alone
years ago, I had a nightmare,
where I was in a black void,
with no anchors at all, no sense of orientation,
no help,,,
and deep inside,,I could see that
I believed there was no help.
I would find myself being, feeling alone.
Yes, I am also a person who loves and enjoys people
and I'm very good with people,
AND I had this deep belief, that I'm all alone.
And once in a while it would get triggered.
and it could be a terrifying experience.

So then I saw,
well if I'm alone and without help,
I've got the door shut.
nobody and nothing can come in.
and sure enough,
after six weeks, my internet card had still not arrived!
and my cell phone still didn't work.
and I wondered who am I closing off from reaching me,
while believing that I'm alone and without help?

So I cut out pictures in magazines,
to help me see all the beliefs around 'being alone'.
I could see the whole thing.
Then I wrote out all of the old beliefs
and took it to the forest.
and there I ripped up the paper,
and tossed it in the air,
saying,"divine masters, take this burden from me!"

I went to lay in the sunny meadow.
I was exhausted,
from processing and releasing.

Then I felt ready to create a new BEEING.
When I get to this stage, I used to get stuck in my head,
and not come up with something inspiring.
so I pay attention to signs around me..
and I did a drawing..
I drew the Strait near the African coast,
and then I added the dolphins,
and then I remembered what my mentor told me...
listen to the dolphins,
but be careful, they're a little dangerous
and I said, " oh you mean they get a little enthusiastic and might knock me over!"
(and the dolphins and I were THAT enthusiastic the last time we saw each other)

and then in the meadow a family of rescued dogs came to greet me. The biggest one,
saw the others getting attention and jumped up to nip me in my neck,
and almost knocked me over..

I got what my new BEEING was..
BEEING KNOCKED OVER BY LOVE!

That night in my campervan, as I was going off to sleep, I went into this mental turmoil,truly intense...worry about how I was going to survive... and it was my first chance to BEE knocked over by love,,,
what I saw was,,,I am standing in the center of people, holding a blazing torch, high above everyone's heads and light is filling all of us.

So what about Sarah? Sarah went through many years with the tribe of Abraham, in resentment and anger, because early in her life she was deeply hurt. She couldn't bear children by Abraham. It was her choice. She destroyed her ability to bear children. It was her way to cut herself off from her royal family and be with the tribe of Abraham.

She held resentment and hurt for years and years, and finally cloistered herself off from the rest of the tribe and lived in complete isolation.

Until her anger was about to overcome her, and in her old age, she surrendered all of her anger and her disbelief in the divine, and then the miracle of birth occurred for Sarah. She bore Abrahams child.

I bore The Jewel Project that day in the forest. I opened myself up to help, team, being knocked over by love. Love comes in all its infinite forms. I am open now to team in my life..and so much more!!

Two days later, I received an email from a husband and wife in England who had seen The Jewel Project listed in the directory for intentional communities. They are experienced intentional community participants and are drawn to The Jewel Project.

THE DOOR IS OPEN!

I feel like a tumbleweed,
that's being blown gently,
through one little dust storm,
after another,
in a gentle embrace.

I made another unconcealing and shifting yesterday, but I wont write that now...
Last night in the van, my ears heard every little thing outside, and the dropping of leaves and seeds from the branches above..my mind wanted to race off into worry..how am I to survive? I felt like I was shrivelling..It all was a play of the mind..and there was a lot of momentum in it..like a horse driven cart about to take the master off the road, then out of my imagination bag, came the vision to focus on..

I saw myself holding a staff with a flame alit at the top. It was a towering staff. And all my family and friends were gathered and basking in this glow. And with this,,,I drifted to sleep.

Today I did a new reality collage, after coming through some amazing stuff yesterday that I released. And this collage was so beautiful...there's a male partner in it, and he has a young child, a girl...he rides horses and so do I. We meet when we are embarking to go out into the Strait to see the dolphins...He is my perfect business/love partner..and another picture I clipped out shows us like two horses nuzzling each other.

I couldn't be at the computer, and outside in the park, was all the laughter and play from the many neighborhood children..I went out there with ping pong paddles and ball to join them. My little Luis, a two year old, and his sister, Lila, run to greet me. Their mother greets me with a big smile. Another little 1 1/2 yr. old Croatian boy joins us with his huge, huge eyes...HUGE EYES!
We begin this play of running the ping pong ball back and forth across the table. This goes on for more than an hour,laughter and pure delight.
It's 8:00pm their bedtime, so I disappear the balls, as their parents whisk them away to their beds...

I go off on the bicycle into the forest and as I ride home, I feel a sadness descending. I'm puzzled, and then when I reach Gina'a and get onto Skype, to talk to Dad, I find out that Mom is experiencing more complications.

She hurt her hip a few weeks ago. It was painful for her. Then a week ago she had double bypass surgery. She was starting to recover and then they took her back to critical care, to help her drain the liquid from her lungs. Dad was just leaving the hospital when I called.

I then understood some things...my sadness. I realized I was in grief for Mom's suffering, and that I wasn't there to soothe her.

I let tears flow.
I had picked up a book, just wanting something to read, and this book I found
soothing.. it's called Medicine Woman by Susan Freilicker

one page says this....

reflections of her heart

The good red road of life leads from mother to daughter and to her daughter in turn...and to all the generatins of daughters. It is the way of grandmother and maiden. of mother and child, of woman in all her many phases. It is the path that leads to the Reflections of Her Heart.

I remembered how many times mother mentioned the book, "Sarah" to me, and then I had so many signs to find out about Sarah, that the book fell into my hands. Sarah, the wife of Abraham. Sarah, who gave up the ability to have children by Abraham and regretted it, and lost faith in the divine, resented the other mothers, became hurt and cut herself off from the rest of the wandering tribe. At the age of 50 or so, she finally surrendered all of her anger and resentment, and opened herself up to divine love, and bore a child.

And "Sarah" is what I finished healing yesterday. My mother, who didn't know on the surface, but within her was the knowing...and she passed her inner knowing, unknowingly to me, in the most amazing ways.

I go to sleep tonight in gratitude for mother and invite the angelic realm to embrace her, my father, my family, and me, and the planet in healing light.

THE LIGHTHOUSE THAT SENDS OUT HER LIGHT

So you may have noticed that my last blog was somewhat sad and low key. That piece, I wrote last night, here in Munich..After writing that segment, I was feeling so much upwelling of emotion, and feeling like I had hit a wall. I wanted to get to the source of it. But what it felt like was...I was trapped.

Earlier in the day, I had a walk with a wonderful man I met in the park, in my favorite meadow. As I spoke to him, I realized that as nice as it was to meet with him and get acquainted that there was the feeling of spinning my wheels here in Munich.

But I still thought..I'm supposed to be here in Munich. I'm supposed to meet people HERE. I'm supposed to help open up the Strategic Attraction Work here in Germany. I'm supposed to learn German. But something doesn't feel right. Someone invited me to a gathering of English speaking parents in the nearby community, and when I thought of driving there, I said, "No". No more winding streets and getting lost and narrow passages and tight parking spaces. So then, it's better to turn that into...WHAT DO I WANT? WHAT WOULD BE THE WAY I WANT IT TO GO?

So, I felt excited about sharing The Jewel Project with people and the Strategic Attraction Planning, AND something didn't feel right..and I was beginning to feel lost.

In fact, I felt totally alone! And there was not the usual escape route..call someone on Skype..so I raised my hand in the air to ask the angels for some guidance..
then I went to the laptop, and started typing an email to my mentor..and just spilling out all of my confusion.

And she picked up on the main theme...
"Annie what I'm getting is that you should be in Spain! That's where your project is! That's where Principe is! That's what you came to Europe for!
Why aren't you there? How did you end up in Germany?

what happened to your internal guidance? Where did you get off the path...Your navigational system is beeping and saying, "please get back on the highlighted path"

Oh, boy was I relieved! I was feeling such a longing to be in Spain, in the Jewel, with Principe and the community I know there! Whew!

So here's what I see that I did to attract this whole situation of being stalled in Munich longer than the divine had intended...
I thought that money had to come first before making plans to travel. Now you might say,"but Annie, isn't that true?"

Hmmmm. I'm going to twist your mind a little, as I've had to do mine.

We have been so well trained in the old paradigms...first have the material, then make your dreams, your plans...then be happy. First have the money...then do the talking. I'm here to tell you I fell into that old trap.

So I think I've been here about ten days too long, and during that time I've been figuring it out how to make it work, to begin my work here, find a place to live when it gets cold, start workshops, learn German and so forth...but guess what? my light shines the brightest when I'm in Spain with my Principe, the holder of the promise of The Jewel...

and so in Spain is where my light vibration will get out brightly...that's where all the attracting will happen! where I'm happy, and where things happen with ease! "but,but,but, you say and I say." The Spaniards are not so this and that...and here in Munich is this and that...Munich is where the .....is
nuhuh...has nothing to do with that.

As long as I stay true to my course, my lighthouse shines brightly, and you'll get some of that light! And people will find me from the most amazing corners of the planet!

So I am now so relieved and happy. I'm going to Spain next week in my campervan, The Prince! Principe, here I come!

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MAKING THE TRANSITION (and just go with my flow...I'm letting myself write from random thoughts)

So I'm writing to you on a day that feels very lonely. It is dawning on me, that I am someplace inbetween. Not yet German, not in Spain and no longer in the United States. Today, I realized that I've got to begin to let go of the last attachments to my previous culture and to begin to immerse myself in the German culture, the Bavarian culture, which is truly special.

So many people have said," Annie, when are you learning German?" So I've had plenty of signs to start, and I will sign up by the end of this week.

Last night I read from Frances Scovel Schinn's book, " The Game of Life" . This book should be read, if no other. You will understand what it means, what you must do, to attract what you truly want, into your life. It's a very small book and very profound. We are returned to the simple truths about life, that all of us have strayed so far from in growing up in this current culture.

This is a time, I also have many thoughts about what our world is changing into, and I can see why my inner longing for a self-sustaining, profitable, educational and crafting community, The Jewel , was born.

Yesterday, I glanced at a video clip from some news sent through the Impossible Promise Keepers..It was of children born deformed from the radioactive substances ingested by the birthing parents...parents in Iraq. I don't usually even look at news. The most news I see is the headlines from Yahoo. It was another wake-up call for me. I don't need much.

And then today, I read the texts of presentations from the last Ecovillage Network Conference about what they see that will be the evolution for all of us who willingly flow with what's wanting to happen, further down the road...click here to read some of the presentations. This was encouraging once again. Many wonderful changes are happening for all of us..we've just got to let go of old paradigms...really let go. I'll say more about this as I go along. I'm sensing what the presenters at the Conference are sensing...we're going back to local sustainable communities and simpler and joyful living. I'm starting now!


And where I want to shine my light is.... on what I know in my heart will work. For the last few days, I have been writing about what The Jewel Community will look like, and I've been studying other communities and organizations that support the formation of sustainable communities. Online today, I visited a beautiful community, a community created 20 years ago in northern Italy called, http://www.damanhur.info/ It's a community that allows for the natural springing forth of spiritual inspiration through the expression of the arts by ordinary people. People connecting with spirit and enlivening their community with rich spiritual connection through the arts.

In my own experience, my true inspiration comes, when I allow the time to create, create with artistic tools and create freely. Just to imagine an entire community where free self-expression in the arts is given free reign by the participants!

That's all for tonight. Miracles are truly happening all the time..and who Im being is relishing the moment.